Monday, December 31, 2012 @ 12:26 AM!(:
Today is the last day for the year 2012 and I guess i should reflect on how i had done for the year 2012. There were many things that had happened that had impact on my life physically and emotionally. Emotionally, I just realised that no matter how far i went even if i went for a holiday or further my studies in overseas, i will certainly miss my family especially my dear dear daddy. I found out the hard way during my trip to Bangalore; India that whenever I'm sick with extreme discomfort, the first person I will look to will be my dad. I fell sick during my trip there and with severe tummy pain that I cried really hard since i can't take it, I missed my dad the most. He was the one who took care of me when I'm sick even when I'm 20 years old. Hehe. If i were to reflect on the reasons why i cried that day could be mainly due to the pain and also I'm homesick. I had never ever gotten sick before when I'm far away from dad. Guess I'm daddy's girl huh?
During the year 2012, I've finally entered my final year in my Polytechnic life and i wait to finish my studies. Thinking back, i was really anxious to just finish my studies and graduate. However, entering final year, there was too much stress and pressure that i had to undergo just to end that 1 pitiful semester in RP. There was UT that i had to study, FYP which was always on my mind, theres the report that needs to be done, FYP presentation and last but not least those uncomfortable people i met along the way to finish my semester. Lets just say, there was perseverance going on a lot during those critical time. There were at times where i just feel like giving up and not attend school but i keep saying to myself " Its just for 1 semester. I can do this. Just ignore them!". Although i admit that sometimes, i failed to persevere. But in the end, i made it for that 1 semester.
"After report, there will only be left with UT and FYP Presentation. After UT, there will only be left with FYP Presentation. After FYP Presentation, there will only be left with Internship, then I'm done with school" The mantra that i kept holding on till the end.
There was mixed feelings when i received my result for UT and also my GPA. I feel relieved and happy that i passed all my modules and there wasn't a need for me to retake any modules. However, i feel kind of sad also at the same time. By looking at my GPA, i knew that i can't further my studies with the local University. Feeling of regret did washed over me at some point of time as if i had appeal for other poly, maybe my result won't be as bad as it is now. After all the feelings were gone, new plans began to form in my head especially after going to the University Fair. I thought maybe i could further my studies overseas? But, financial issue kept keeping me back. Up till at this moment, I'm not really sure what i will want to do after graduation.
The next phase that i had underwent will be the Internship phase.I've learnt quite a lot while undergoing internship at NUHS Ophthalmology Department. Although working in an office is not what i have in mind, i guess i did somewhat enjoy myself over there although while I'm undergoing internship, i can't wait till its the end of internship. Internship teaches you quite a few things like there will always be office politics wherever you go.
Tomorrow will start a new year with a brand new resolutions as well as new beginnings. I will soon end my internship and i will either start my working career or continue my studies career. With the start of this brand new year 2013, I hope to secure enough money so that i can further my studies and begin my new path towards achieving my goals. I too hope that with 2013, i can be a better Muslim and a better daughter.
With this, i would like to wish everyone a Happy New Year!!
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