Sunday, November 6, 2011 @ 9:18 PM!(:
Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha! Hope you guys will have a great Hari Raya today. For me, it was great though since its the only time i can finally reunited with all my deary cousins. For the past few days, i think i've been feeling really down. Maybe because everything came back crashing down suddenly. Before this, i've been really accepting that we will never be back together again since you have already move on and i've also move on. You love her and theres nothing i can do about it. We're just friends. So i've move on. But why must questions after questions be asked about why i am the way i am??
So what if i did not have any replacement after everything went down??I dont need to be in relationship or looking for anyone. Im perfectly alright with being just like how i am. Theres no feelings for hym anymore just the memories that prevent me from being hateful towards hym. I cant lie that i dont think of hym sometimes. There are times when the "what ifs" came through my mind. But its meaningless to think about it anymore.
Seriously, sometimes people tend to make a huge deal about what was not being said. For now, im just gonna enjoy my freedom and focus on my studies. For months, i kept holding onto the 'promise' he made but when i thought about it, these promises will never be fulfilled. I want different things in life and he wants different things. Maybe im too blinded by my feelings for hym but thinking back, i thought he was 'the one' for me too. And that does not last long. So what for i wait for hym?
If theres love, there will be love. I'll leave everything to god. If one day, we were to be together again, maybe thats fate. Hes mine all along. But until then, hes never mine. One thing for sure, i will never forget those sweet memories we had together.
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