Friday, April 23, 2010 @ 11:55 PM!(:
We are so accustomed to disguise ourself to others that in the end we become disguised to ourself
~Francious Duc de la Rochefocauld~
For the past week, things were going quite well for someone like me. Although i was usually nervous during doing presentation in the past. i think i finally overcome that part of fear since i did it almost everyday which makes me feel as if it is part of poly life. In all the teams that i had, theres only 2 teams which makes me feel comfortable to be just myself. The teams consist of me, Shawn, Miza, Barry and See Yu. Then the other team is me, Shawn, Barry, Syahira and Shrannya. These are th only teams that i feel the most comfortable with. Theres not pressure or have very high expectation. Lets just say, sometimes being pressurized made me feel as if i was never good enough for the team and that what just happened exactly today. It was totally sick okayy!!!Today problem statement is how people find out about these and which is the best way to find out about things[or something like that]. We were sort into a totally different group than last week and for that it starts the beginning of a bad day for me. I admit i took a really long long time before i can be accustomed to others who i am not close especially these guys who i just met a week ago. Although they made me feel so called welcoming, i felt so alone than i was ever before. All those people who i feel comfortable with is not in the same group as me and i felt as if i had to start all over again. The team makes up of me, Shrannya, Fakhri, Shawn and Izzati. Seriously, i kept more to myself than i was ever when i was with them and i can't explained why. To put simply, i felt intimidated by them especially Izzati and Fakhri. They made me feel as if we had to be the top of others and less than that is a dissapointment. To me, its not where we are, its the process of answering the question. I like working at my own pace and not being rushed to do things or give out ideas. So i opted to keep to myself and just contribute ideas without much "contact". Its better rather than i keep mum right?? Did soome of the powerpoint slides with Shrannya although its not much at least i put in an effort. You guys just have high expectation. the person who you sees is just the outer layer to make sure that i was accepted by you but guess you guys will never get to know the real me. I can never be myself with both of you asshole and bitch.After looking at the presentation before us, i know that some of the slides that other teams have we didn't have but at least we did make a stand. So what if we missed it?? Its not really a big deal. You doesn't have to be so angry and take it out on us what?? It was like wtf?? Omg!! Seriously you are just thinking of yourself and want everything to be perfect. Whatever. My first impression on you is that you are a bloody asshole bitch sia!!! Seriously, i prefer to be place in teams full of other races especially chinese rather than my own race. At least they appreciate the effort we put into the presentation rather than being a bitch about it. Im more happier and livelier with them rather than my own race. Pathetic or what?? You can continue being a full up bitch you are. Lets just say you guys and me are just acquaintance. You can just go and being a bitch and asshole larhh..Labels: asshole, bitch and perfect
