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Thursday, January 1, 2009 @ 10:18 PM!(:

Alright people! Happy New Year to all of you. May the year 2009 be a blissful year for all of you. So since today is the first day of the new year, guess i think its best for me to reflect the year that had passed. (This post might be long though!)

Year 2008 had been an eventful year for me. Well, besides the obvious reason of course; preparing for N level. I started out the year with a whole new resolution i hold onto; do well in my N levels which at the same time trying to prove to hym that i can succeed even without his presence. Everything went smoothly according to plan. I had fun in school together with gfs. Tried my best to stay happy and forget hym. However, as people usually says, 'something we least expected will usually happened to us'. Guess they are right on the cue about it. Although those feelings for hym do exist in my heart, i tries with all my might to make it fade away. Just as i was about to forget hym, he appeared into my life. He kept reappearing in my life again and again and causing me unable to forget hym. Cruel isn't it?? So, each time he disappeared, i picked up myself and force myself to stay strong. Sometimes i misses hym a litle bit too much that i cried myself to sleep. tsk tsk My birthday celebration this year was rather meaningful to me. I celebrated with almost everyone i know. I could still remember how i was waiting for the clock to stike 12 while busy conferencing with my dearly cousins. They were the first ones to wish me and im really touch that they even sang me a birthday song-LIVE. Not forgetting the most expensive present i received from dad; a hp. With gfs and hym wishing me guess its a birthday celebration that i will always remember.

I've experience 3 deaths of people i knew. Although i may not be close to them, they are people i love. I dont think i will be able to go through yet another death again. haix Sitting for N level is really stressing me out at that moment. I could still remember how i stayed up late at night just to study for my History. Guess, everything is worth it. Theres one point in time where by i cried as i could no longer take the pressure. Its a day before MT O level. I suddenly felt lost and lonely. He as per normal, were no where to be found. Im happy that ZY is there to give me moral support. I really am grateful to zy. So, although theres still many things that happened, i dont think i will be able to type it. Just say, i have an enjoyable and sad time in 2008 which makes me to be someone stronger in 2009.

Seriously, He was never there for me when i need hym. Although im contented that he did not forget me, but some part of me still wanted more. At times, i pitied cousins. I know they meant good for me but i just cant heed their advice. I cant stop myself from falling in love with hym again and again. Yess, hym-sufi. Cousins always tried to console me when im feeling frustrated about hym or when i really misses hym but i always took it for granted. Once, i tried telling hym that its hym who i love, but in the end it ended up with a failure. HE will never understand. He read my blog but unfortunately its either hes too (insert your own word) or really did not noticed it, i did upload his picture once. All along its hym who ive been talking about yet he kept asking me to tell the guy that im still waiting for hym. Cant he see that its hym?? Why must he make it more difficult for me than it already is??if only he knows.. But guess he will never know. Even if he do know, i think its rather late right now. haix..


p/s everything ended ryte now

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She's called Suhana Bte Mohd Sukor
Practically Kn0wn as Su and NaNa
Hana Asuhara is her Japanese name
She's 20 thiis yeAr
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Born on 27 Sya'ban 1412
Graduated from wEsT sPrInG seConDarY
Piixchaa takiings are lovEd
Watching movies is a hobby
Black blue white defines hEr
she's single but unavailable!
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[♥]Forget HYM
[♥]Go to Poly or JC
[♥]Go to overseas university
[♥]sEnd mY parEnts f0r hAj aNd umrAh
[♥]fulfill mY gRandmA wish; bE a tEachEr
[♥]An everlasting love
[♥]Graduate from Poly
[♥]Travel around the world
[♥]My own laptop
[♥]Pass my N level
 [♥]Receive 20 points and below for O level
[♥]A1/A2 for MT O level
[♥]All the Twilight Saga books
[♥]New Zinc Sling bag
[♥]New wallet
[♥]Nokia 5610

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