Tuesday, September 16, 2008 @ 5:28 PM!(:
Ohhh my whole body is aching! Was late for school today just to help mum sidai the clothes. I know that i did not need to do all those things but i just felt that its my responsibilty to do help mum. I don't usually bother to do that early in the morning with the reason ' I'm late larh mak!' But now i changed my opinion. I did not want my makcik to do it. I just don't feel comfortable if she did it. Felt as if i want to do everything and not outsiders. It feel so cruel saying them outsiders but then thats how i felt. I can't lie about what i feel right?? I know, its unfair to them but hey, i do have my own opinion and privacy. All these while, i felt as if my privacy was invaded by them. It doesn't bother me having to share my room with them but please respect my privacy. Don't act as if this room is yours!! Act as if my cupboard is yours. I'm forced to have my doors locked each time i went out. haixx..Sory if what i wrote here upsets you but then thats the truth. I was glad that at least i have a companion but looking at how things were right now, i guess i prefer the old times..You guys kept pestering me to believe in things that i dont believe. How ridiculous it is. Ohh shit! Better forget about it.School was superbly boredom today. Had Physics for the first period. Mr Fauroni was extremely different nowadays. Could be due to fasting?? Hikmah Ramadhan. hehe Shed 150 calories during PE in half an hour. Impressive huh??haha Was dead tired during recess and nearly end up not having energy to carry my wallet with me. Aiyo!! POA & Bio was moderate. Could not fully focus during Maths due to fatigue. haix kept dozing off during class. And i was extremely tempted to have a drink! kalau iman aku tak kuat, dah lame aku minum air seyy. By the way, received back our report book yesterday. Gotten 7 points for prelim. Its so not what i expected! Its supposed to be 3 points but ended up having 7 points. Was seriously no in mood yesterday due to this tooooottt thingyy..Just forget it.Sometimes i felt as if brother is keeping a secret from me about hym. I'm unsure what it is. But its really getting on my nerves! Kept thinking about it. If its just about hym having a gf, then im so not interested as i knew all along that its always been me whose loving hym and not hym. Tried wining hym back but im not the type who is willing to do anything for a guy. I'm sory to say this. But you are the lst person in the list of the people i love. Cause i know its useless loving you. But i will never regret knowing and locing you. never!!
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