Tuesday, August 19, 2008 @ 10:08 PM!(:
Oh my god..!! How time flies so fast. In about TWO weeks time i will be going to sit for my N level exams.Panic time! Ohh gosh!! Had to buck up for my ss. I want to score an A1 for my combined humanities but with SBQ will it ever going to happen? I'm always been weak in my SBQ and idk why. haixx And yupp, miracle do occur to people who believe in it. Received back our ss ppr in the morning and guess what? I passed my ss!! thank god..!!So will be waiting patiently to know my results for my hist. I sure release a sign of relieve when i realise that i passed! Anyway gfs and i was talking about puasa and such. Just can't wait for it. Theres a feeling of excitement for that although i will be busy with all the revisions for the upcoming exams. Seriously, I'm happy for Amira. She is slowly able to forget Syazwan although its tough for her. Can you imagine placing yourself in her shoes. Forgetting someone who you dearly love is not an easy task. It tooks a lot of courage to forget about the love you once shared. I know how she feels. I'm experiencing it right now. I only realise that i love hym a little too much only after hes gone. I took hym for granted and thinking that everything will be just fine. Nothing will go wrong. But who am i to decide the fate? I know its my fault. I know i didn't appreciate you enough and maybe thats the reason why you were taken away from me. Its a lesson to be learnt. I did not care about hym. All i care at that moment is my EOY. Felt that nothing is more important that EOY. But then im wrong. I ignore hym. Busy with all my revisions made it worse. As days passed by, the distance between us grew wider and eventually it came to a stage whereby theres no msgs, no calls and no night wishes from hym. Guess he grew tired that. I know its always hym who started everything. Sending msgs, calling and stuffs. But i didnt bothered about doing anything about it. And thats my biggest mistake. If only i know how painful i will be right now, never will i did things i should never did in the past. People said ' learnt from mistakes and never repeat the same mistake again'
And I really do learnt from my past mistakes. Sometimes i do asked myself. How is he? Should i msgs hym or not? Should I continue waiting for hym? Is he really happy? Does he have a replacement? Who? Does she love hym the way i did? Will she repeat the mistakes i once did? I know i will never have the answer. Although i do yearn for hym back but at the same time studies is my main priority. I want to pass my exams with flying colours. I want hym to feel proud of me because i pass. I want to show it to hym that i can succeed even without hym by my side. Guess all i ever wanted is for hym to love me back the way he did in the past. I'm sorry for the mistakes i did. I trully am. If only you could know how much i misses you. How much i love you. ohh it will never happen. Its just something impossible to be achieved!!Labels: Having hym back is something impossible
